fish will flop some other time

There is nothing on television that I would really consider good tv unless it's bad. Unless of course you are talking about the National Geographic channel, but that is completely another realm of obsession.
I don't own a television, and hardly watched it when I had one, so I don't even know what would constitute a bad show....
Anyhow, I am hopelessly addicted to these terrifically bad television series, 90210, America's Next Top Model, Sons of Anarchy...The others are less consistent in terms of me following them. So how do I watch these said shows? Well,  I discovered, during one of my many too hungover to get out of bed kind of days, that I am able to view them via the internet! Who woulda fucking thought?  Plenty of people, I'm sure.

Never in my life, except for maybe when I was below the age of 10, have I made time in my schedule or even thought about making time, to follow some series on television week by week. Ha, I laugh at myself all the time, because it's so bad! ...

But really, I'm still getting all my shit done for work and school, no interference yet. I'm just living vicariously through all of the fucks I watch on these shows. I figure that taking a vacation from the fun, but dehabilitating, nights of getting so purposely trashed was a good idea..I don't want to look 45 when I am 30, though the damage may already be done. I may laugh about it, but my body has a rough history of abuse. I always wonder what I would look like if I hadn't started drinking in middle school, smoking when I was 14, gone through periods of starving myself for years...Besides what I would look like, I wonder what my mental state would be like and if my body wouldn't ache every morning from whatever the hell I did to it in these past years.

I won't lie and say that I am over the fact that I have destroyed promise my life may or may not have had, but for all of my mishaps and the debauchery I've contrived, I am doing fucking good.  Someone even told me I was uptight the other day, and I that I needed to loosen the fuck up!  Me, uptight?   Now, me being drunk and uptight is a twisted improvement on my end. That I am a loose canon and quite possibly irrational, is something I am used to being told about myself while intoxicated, definitely not uptight.

Enough is enough, any I have watched more internet tv today than my eyeballs can stand .

GOOD NIGHT.