Engligh, please?

Jesus Christ, will it ever end? Once I find some sort of solace and consistency, I find a way to upset the structure. Although, I have been in a state of what I would normally not qualify as ideal, lately I have been more productive than ever. I am able to actually get myself our of bed and the house, do ten thousand things in the city and feel great about it. This of course is not something that my willpower can take credit for in it's entirety. I've been wearing my glasses, which even though I hate it  and think I am the fucking nerd of the century encarnated when I wear them, I know that I benefit from that embarrasment. I also have been on top of all my med situations...yes I am one of those ADD/ADHD kids who takes aderall, but unlike all you confused people out there who think that taking adderall is means for the time of your life and an obvious way for you to starve and become a Nicole Ritchie lookalike, I take it in times that would aid me from the scatterbrained and spacey mindset which normally occupies much wasted time. 
Blah, blah. I am a little tipsy was the 2 drinks i had earlier....anyway, I had a wonderful and eventful day. Today my studio class took a fieldtrip to Gleason's Gym in DUMBO, where we then divided ouselves into a few groups so we could create an editorial type series of photographs, which of couse will be graded later. Unfortunately I can't express my favorite part of this little journey in this blog, don't want anyone to read it and get the wrong idea....haha, or any idea for that matter. I am kind of a 13 year old girl when it comes to guys, even when it comes to guys are way older than me....But really, I can't write about it on here, so if you want to know what I am referring to you can ask me later.
The gym was great. For the most part, we were shooting men, but randomly my professor wanted us to take portraits of this female boxer (my professor is a boxer at this gym as well). Everything would have been fine, except she wouldn't start boxing for about an hour after we spoke since she had just eaten.....
I've realized that this type of photography is definitely not for me, and I don't get amazing shots, but as a director I am precise and get great photographs. It has me thinking about what my eventual profession will be. I love photography and love taking and creating pictures, but I also in my weird way like to dictate the scenario and mood while someone else takes the photograph. I suppose we'll see eventually how I determine my passion, or whatever. The thing is, I am so passionate about photography that I think I have neglected my responsiblity skills in terms of directing and how to basically interact in the professional world.  ANYHOW, my day went smoothely despite my headache from all the wine I drank last night.  The guys at the gym could not get enough of me and my friend Carianne! I guess 2 blond chicks wearing leggings, or at least tight pants, is hard to ignore......